/R1/ First case of Sleep Paralysis and Lucidity

I decided that it would be a good idea to log some of my dreams prior to the creation of this dream journal. I figured It can only serve to further help me reflect on myself. These logs will be put into the category “Recollection” and will be tagged with /R/ so that I could keep track of each recollection entry and each dream journal entry.

On quite a uneventful night which I can not recall the date of, I was struck with a dream so vivid and realistic that the only word to describe it is “profound.” I should also note that this happened sometime after my first experience with pot. To continue, I had just come out from a bus in a location I was not familiar with. There was a school too but I didn’t recognize it. The unfamiliarity of everything must have sparked my lucidity. In fact,  this was the first time I can recall that I was actuatly lucid in a dream. Being lucid in a dream is an extremely amazing experience. In a normal dream things kinda just happen like your on a roller coaster and you have absolutely no control. In a lucid dream you have control over your movement and thought. So anyways, I was walking down the road and it kinda felt like I was high on marijuana with a general sense of confusion. Beside me were some people I was familiar with and that I had smoked with too. We were walking down this road and all of the sudden they were gone. I than experienced a sensation of floating. However, I had lost control of my movement, the best way I can explain it is that I was falling vertically towards something. I saw a fence with a bright light and I kept moving forward to it. With control of mind I had began to experience great fear when going towards this light and so I tried to resist it. All of the sudden I fell vertically in the other direction and regained consciousness in the real world. I had vision of everything around me but there was just one problem… my body was completely paralyzed!!! What came next was incredibly and intense sense of fear couple with a large buzzing noise in my head that I felt and sounded completely real. At that moment I was freed from paralysis and used this opportunity to surf the net and discover what had happened. I experienced sleep paralysis, but fortunately enough I had not seen the usual hallucinations that accompany it and in comparison to most cases my experience was relatively short.

Oh and theres something else I would like to add about lucid dreams. They are usually so intense and real that it is actuatly quite easy to remember them unlike your usual dream. Noting this, it most likely that my entries in recollection will consist of lucid dream since those are the only ones I can really remember.

First entry

Recently, my interests have been changing in a most rapid fashion but I would have to say that it has only aided me in my journey of self discovery, a journey that we should all partake in. I have entered a new phase in my life, a very exciting one that I hope I will never abandon. It all began with me experimenting… or so it would seem from those outside of my perspective. I was never really the type to experiment, this to me was more of an issue with curiosity. For me curiosity is like pain, of course much more subtle than pain but similar in that your mind desperately seeks relief from it. In this case, the curiosity that I was so desperately but secretively seeking relief from was the somewhat popular marijuana high. Yes, in health class when the teacher was teaching us about the dangers of marijuana that pushed me away a little, but I was always interested in knowing what euphoria felt like. Being an ignorant teen at the time I did not really bother questioning things and so for the greater part of High School I held a strong anti-drug view. However, this did not last for a long time. Soon my friends began to venture into this unknown world, inviting me to join them. Although, I was repulsed and disgusted at first, that little bit of curiosity pulled me in. For the first time in my life I decided to research for myself rather than believe every word our superiors told us. What I discovered was mind boggling… marijuana is not really a dangerous drug at all. As a result of this discovery, the answer became clear: I must try marijuana.  And so I did… discovering even more than I had been expecting. A new world, a world of altered consciousness that made my logical mind explode and my philosophical one flourish. Basically, this altered state of consciousness had raised millions of questions and undoubtedly sparked my interest in the working of the mind.

This little prologue was written to remind me of the origin of interest in the mind and altered states of consciousness. Also, I think it works as quite a decent introduction to my blog as well. Oh yes… my blog, hmm how to explain its purpose? In basic form my blog is meant to record my experiences that I would normally forget, my dreams. It will serve mostly as a personal dream journal to aide me in my quest to achieve lucid dreaming. In addition, if I ever decide to try other mind altering substances I will be sure to post the experience here. I have made the blog public because I love to share, all humans love to share, and for that reason I appreciate any comments or e-mails. Want to discuss something with me? Just e-mail me at King.1irst@gmail.com